ICU (I See You)

kanina habang nasa harap ako ng pc, nagtext si mama.

"Lein nagpapaalam na c inang and2 kamng lahat."

Hindi na ko nagdalawang isip na patayin ang kompyuter dahil bigla akong nakaramdam ng pagaalala dahil baka hindi ko maabutan ang dapat ko maabutan.

Si lola,nasa ICU. biglang nalang daw tumigil ang heartbeat. nagulantang ang lahat. 

Pagdating ko roon, andun si mama at ang iba pa niyang mga kapatid sa waiting area. naghihintay...nagaabang...dumagdag ako.

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Madalang lang ako pumunta sa ospital. ayoko dun. ayoko ang ambiance. ayoko sa doktor. kaya hindi ako mahilig magpa-check-up. hindi ako takot sa dugo. takot ako sa resulta. takot sa nagaagaw-buhay. takot sa dumadaing sa sakit at sa mga matang hirap na hirap na gusto ng mapahinga.

sa paligid makikita mo ang iba't-ibang mukha, hindi lang ng pisikal kundi maging ng buhay mismo.

Pag naghihintay ako, mahilig akong igala ang aking paningin sa lugar at galaw ng mga taong nasa paligid ko. sa ospital, may nagmamadali...may nakasalo ang mukha sa dalawang kamay...may nakasandal sa pader at tumitingin sa malayo...may nakatingala sa kisame na tila tumatagos ng lampas sa mga ulap at may tahimik lang at naghihintay...LAHAT, MAY BAHID NG LUMBAY. 

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bago nakapasok si lola sa ospital na iyon, hiningan muna kame ng 20,000. ang dating, "NO MONEY, NO ADMIT".

PERAHAN. Parang pulitika rin pala ang ospital. Minsan(o madalas) hindi na pinaiikot ng awa at pagsisilbi sa kapwa kundi ng pera. 

Nakakainis lang na ganun. Para bang dependyente ang bawat malubha sa ospital. Na ipinararamdam ng ospital sa mahirap na pag wala siyang pera, pwede at agad na siyang mamamatay. 

Minsan iniisip ko, parang pinalalala nalang ng ibang doktor ang sakit ng maysakit. wala naman sa kamay ni sa daliri nila ang bawat buhay. 

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Nakapasok ako sa ICU. si lola...medyo nagbago na ang itsura. Bago kame nakapasok don, sinabihan kame ng tita ko na palakasin daw ang loob ni lola. Pagdating ko roon, nginitian ko si lola na parang normal na scenario lang. binabaliwala ko ang mga nakatusok, nakalagay sa mukha sa ilong at sa tagiliran niya. Nginitian ko siya na parang okay lang ang lahat.

"Gusto ko ng umuwe. Ayoko na dito. nahihilo ako." sabi ni lola. 

"Opo. uuwi rin kayo. Pero syempre kailangan muna umayos kundisyon niyo." (habang nakangiti)

hindi ko na itinanong kung ano ang nararamdaman niya dahil halata namang masakit. ikaw ba naman ang mamaga ang mga ugat sa nakaturok sa iyo, kundi ka mahirapan. 

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Maraming tao sa ospital. kumbaga sa tindahan, hindi nawawalan ng mamimili. Pero sa ospital mo makikita kung papaano naguugnay-ugnay ang mga tao...kung papaano sila nakadepende sa awa at pagliligtas ng Dios. (Sana manirahan sa ospital ang mga atheist at tignan nila ang mga nangyayari.)

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Sa tuwing ganito, hindi ako umaasa sa readings o findings ng doktor sa tuwing lalabas siya ng kwarto. hindi sa lifeline machine(kung ganun nga tawag dun) o sa mga gamot. ang tangi kong pagasa ay ang paggawa ng Dios. Sa mga pangyayari, may dahilan. wala akong karapatan na manumbat o punuin pa ng tanong ang aking isip sa mga ganitong bagay. Ang alam ko lang,

DEUTERONOMIO 32:39

Tingnan ninyo ngayon, na ako, samakatuwid baga'y ako nga, At walang dios sa akin: Ako'y pumapatay, at ako ang bumubuhay; Ako'y sumusugat, at ako'y nagpapagaling: At walang makaliligtas sa aking kamay. 

so sino ako? sino sila? at ano ang kaya nila?natin? SIYA lang ang pwede nating panaingan at pagasa. 

sabi nila, sa panahon daw ng kasakitan nagiging madasalin ang tao. sana hindi. sa maysakit man o sa wala, nagiingat ang Dios. ngunit kailangan din nating ingatan ang ating mga sarili.kung wala kang sakit, magpasalamat ka. kung meron man, magpasalamat ka pa rin.

Minsan late natin ma-realize ang mga simpleng bagay ng Dios. simple palang ha. gaya ngayon, ngayon ko lang naiisip ang mga simpleng nagdulot ng MALAKING pagiingat sa akin na ginawa ng Dios. nakakapanliit. 

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He sees us. "I SEE YOU."(ICU)

MULI, IGALA MO ANG IYONG PANINGIN. at tayo'y maging MAPAGPASALAMAT SA DIOS.

very nice. very nice

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the Problem Science has with GOD, the ALMIGHTY.

He asked one of his New Christian Students to stand and . . .

Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son ?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, you Believe in GOD ?

Student : Absolutely, sir.

Professor: Is GOD Good ?

Student : Sure.

Professor: Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?

Student : Yes.

Professor: My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to GOD to Heal him.

Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill.

But GOD didn't. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent )

Professor: You can't answer, can you ? Let's start again, Young Fella.

Is GOD Good?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Is Satan good ?

Student : No.

Professor: Where does Satan come from ?

Student : From . . . GOD . . .

Professor: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this World?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn't it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?

Student : Yes.

Professor: So who created evil ?

(Student did not answer)

Professor: Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness?

All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who Created them ?

(Student had no answer)

Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you.

Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD?

Student : No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD?

Student : No , sir.

Professor: Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD?

Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?

Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.

Professor: Yet you still Believe in HIM?

Student : Yes.

Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol,

Science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.

Professor: Yes,Faith. And that is the Problem Science has.

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?

Professor: Yes.

Student : And is there such a thing as Cold?

Professor: Yes.

Student : No, sir. There isn't.

(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events )

Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat,

a Little Heat or No Heat.

But we don't have anything called Cold.

We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that.

There is no such thing as Cold.

Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat.

We cannot Measure Cold.

Heat is Energy.

Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.

(There was Pin-Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )

Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?

Professor: Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?

Student : You're wrong again, sir.

Darkness is the Absence of Something

You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light . . .

But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called Darkness, isn't it?

In reality, Darkness isn't.

If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?

Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed ? Can you explain how?

Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality.

You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD.

You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure.

Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought.

It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.

To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that

Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing.

Death is Not the Opposite of Life: just the Absence of it.

Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved from a Monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.

Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument was going )

Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and

Cannot even prove that this Process is an On-Going Endeavor,

Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir?

Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?

(The Class was in Uproar )

Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the Professor's Brain?

(The Class broke out into Laughter )

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it, touched or Smelt it? . . .

No one appears to have done so.

So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol,

Science says that You have No Brain, sir.

With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir?

(The Room was Silent. The Professor stared at the Student, his face unfathomable)

Professor: I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.

Student : That is it sir . . . Exactly !

The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.

That is all that Keeps Things Alive and Moving.

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I believe you have enjoyed the conversation, and if so,

you'll probably want your friends/colleagues to enjoy the same. Won't you?

Forward them to increase their knowledge, or FAITH.

They say that student was Albert Einstein.